...End of Day...
Well... guess today is end of day bah... before i gone missing... i would really like to say it out but dunno why jus kai bu liao kou..... n the story goes --->
Why i am such a stupid guy? why i m always the target n not the other way round? Why i was even ignored? Why so much misfortunate befall on me? Why ppl keep scolding me stupid? M i really so stupid? Why i feel like i was kept in the darkness? Why i always feel so lonely? Why everyone even my parent dunno how i feel? M i really getting from bad to worst? Why gers see me like seeing a ghost like dis? they mus like getting further away from me better. Why so much thing happening to me? Why i m a failure to everything i do? relationship? money? family? friends? If without my dis CBs-gang here.. i would be a lonely soul out there waiting for constantine to handle me.
Really dunno how i actually feel now... but i can really say.. while i was typing now.. was listening to the song * tong hua * n can really feel the "water" in my eyes was dropping down little by little.
Family-> Was having cold war wit them for about 3weeks liao.. is not i not good to them.. for me i actually put my family above eveything.. but is jus.. they jus dun really understand how i feel. everytime we chat.. can feel the tense coming out. so i would rather keep quiet so nth will happen.
Relationship-> Once i say dis b4, y nid a gf? wit or without does not matter coz is jus like another person to take care of thats all.. Yes everyone will say dis b4 coz THEY were all STEADLESS.. when u are in luv, u wunt say dis. I really hate myself to fall in luv coz everything i fall in luv, it hurts me thats all... it wunt be a happy ending. HaizZz... toking abt falling in luv.. me actually hae a crush on someone else hu got a bf liao. I oso dunno why hae a crush on her.. well mayb she is cute looking? really dunno wad to do. furthermore we hae to face each other at work. lucky it was only weekend coz i only work weekend. HaiZzz... should i 4get about dis crush? i feel that she wunt like me dis type of person de. Well.. 4get it? really dunno wad to do....
Money-> Can say i was stupid.... was actually cheated by a ger i like.. n was like $400 to noe a ger. i like her. she actually take advantage of the situation. Frankly speaking right now. i was still thinking of her but she now was like totally ignoring me. can say my heart still got room for her. I dunno y.. i jus cant be rich... once i m rich.. com spoilt, things gone, cheated n so on.. i jus dunno wad to do wit it.
Friends-> i cherish the most is friends liao after my parent.. i can afford to know more friends but i cant afford to lose them.. really. In poly, u think i got friends? i treated them like my friend. but did they actually treat me as 1? In front me was like smiling, but behind me a knife was stabbing me. think i actually dunno? i know but i jus act blur n put on the smile infront of u coz i dun wish to lose friends. My friends? where are you actually? pls come back like we used to be during primary n secondary times.
I noe dis problems wunt be as big as others. but to me... is enough.. had enough of it.. i will gone crazy over dis.. its like repeating in my mind everyday!!!!!! do i seem happy everyday? NO i dun think so.. can feel my heart is actually crying but not beating....
Next week is my exam liao.. i really hae to say dis out b4 i went into the exam room wit dis bundle.. last but not least.............................. Know dis thing in ur heart n dun hae to spread.. thnx
Why i am such a stupid guy? why i m always the target n not the other way round? Why i was even ignored? Why so much misfortunate befall on me? Why ppl keep scolding me stupid? M i really so stupid? Why i feel like i was kept in the darkness? Why i always feel so lonely? Why everyone even my parent dunno how i feel? M i really getting from bad to worst? Why gers see me like seeing a ghost like dis? they mus like getting further away from me better. Why so much thing happening to me? Why i m a failure to everything i do? relationship? money? family? friends? If without my dis CBs-gang here.. i would be a lonely soul out there waiting for constantine to handle me.
Really dunno how i actually feel now... but i can really say.. while i was typing now.. was listening to the song * tong hua * n can really feel the "water" in my eyes was dropping down little by little.
Family-> Was having cold war wit them for about 3weeks liao.. is not i not good to them.. for me i actually put my family above eveything.. but is jus.. they jus dun really understand how i feel. everytime we chat.. can feel the tense coming out. so i would rather keep quiet so nth will happen.
Relationship-> Once i say dis b4, y nid a gf? wit or without does not matter coz is jus like another person to take care of thats all.. Yes everyone will say dis b4 coz THEY were all STEADLESS.. when u are in luv, u wunt say dis. I really hate myself to fall in luv coz everything i fall in luv, it hurts me thats all... it wunt be a happy ending. HaizZz... toking abt falling in luv.. me actually hae a crush on someone else hu got a bf liao. I oso dunno why hae a crush on her.. well mayb she is cute looking? really dunno wad to do. furthermore we hae to face each other at work. lucky it was only weekend coz i only work weekend. HaiZzz... should i 4get about dis crush? i feel that she wunt like me dis type of person de. Well.. 4get it? really dunno wad to do....
Money-> Can say i was stupid.... was actually cheated by a ger i like.. n was like $400 to noe a ger. i like her. she actually take advantage of the situation. Frankly speaking right now. i was still thinking of her but she now was like totally ignoring me. can say my heart still got room for her. I dunno y.. i jus cant be rich... once i m rich.. com spoilt, things gone, cheated n so on.. i jus dunno wad to do wit it.
Friends-> i cherish the most is friends liao after my parent.. i can afford to know more friends but i cant afford to lose them.. really. In poly, u think i got friends? i treated them like my friend. but did they actually treat me as 1? In front me was like smiling, but behind me a knife was stabbing me. think i actually dunno? i know but i jus act blur n put on the smile infront of u coz i dun wish to lose friends. My friends? where are you actually? pls come back like we used to be during primary n secondary times.
I noe dis problems wunt be as big as others. but to me... is enough.. had enough of it.. i will gone crazy over dis.. its like repeating in my mind everyday!!!!!! do i seem happy everyday? NO i dun think so.. can feel my heart is actually crying but not beating....
Next week is my exam liao.. i really hae to say dis out b4 i went into the exam room wit dis bundle.. last but not least.............................. Know dis thing in ur heart n dun hae to spread.. thnx
posted by CB-gang at 4/04/2005 06:43:00 AM
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